My installation "Second childhood" is based on the wreckage of fishermen boats which I found at the beach. This choice is not only connected to the island itself, - but also to my personal history at the island. Here I have given a life, but here my family life died. Before my divorce I was walking along the beach and picked the wreckage of the boats, ruined by storms in the sea. That was my meditation, my way to accept the current circumstances of my life. I realized, that if something got broken, it will never come back...
I am not the one who just accept the reality as it is – I like to make it better, at least symbolically. That was how my project "The Third Life" appeared. A new and beautiful boat can get crashed and become garbage in it's second life, but in the hands of an artist it can start the third life – as an art object. This idea belongs to Buddhism and it helped me to accept the new life of my family – family which consists of me and my son. That is why the central place in my installation belong to these wreckage.
One of the most important images which express the essence of the project "Second Childhood" is the video art "Reflection". This video was filmed with 2 cubes – the glass one and the mirror one under the water in the Indian Ocean, at Kabalana Beach in the South of Sri Lanka. I experienced the psychological effect of finding my reflection in my child, when we both were depending from each other. At that time I saw me in him – in his appearance, behavior, face, preferences, choice of food and games. This is a very intensive feeling when you see yourself in your child.
Collages turned out to be a new movement for me at that time. My collages are based on the quick sketches I make with ink. I started to make sketches when my son was a newborn. He used to sleep in the sling and I enjoyed my time, reflecting on the paper everything I saw around. Even now I still don't leave the house without my sketchbook and ink. I create my collages with the elements of antique books, written in three official languages in Sri Lanka – Sinhala, Tamil and English. I feel this as a symbolic reconstruction of the history, which we should never forget.
I like to create something new out of something that has been broken, create connections. This is my natural ability to save, change, transform, - and I can express this ability though my collages. It is no coincidence that there are three languages in Sri Lanka. Until the mid-20th century the island was an English colony. The Civil War between the Sinhala and Tamil people brought to the adoption of 2 other languages at the state level was a very significant step after the Thirty Years' War.
My collages reflect this historical process - to break something down and then create something new, like to tear something and glue it into something new. I see this process not only as the process of the country, but also an individual, a human being.
During my social art research in Sri Lanka I found many interesting facts. But it reflects also my personal story that I first lived through, and then researched, realized. The connection of the history of the island and my personal history on the island have been expressed in the installation you can see today.